“I’ve been on so many diets, I’ve forgotten what eating without a calculator and judge and jury in my head feels like. Whether for comfort or out of boredom, I reach for food rather than a brisk walk or a hot bath. When I am not over eating, I am ruthlessly depriving myself of food. I’ve never looked at food as nourishment or fuel. Instead, I look at it as a savior or a taboo. Maybe I am feeling some other hunger.” This is was me. The person and mentality living inside me. This is the person I dug deep and ran fast to say goodbye to and the person I seek out in others to help. “